Focus

I’ve really been slacking here. I always think of stuff to blog about but then I don’t have time. I need to work on that.

Today, I am thinking about focus and what my focus will be in 2010. In 2009, I focused a lot on love. I wanted to be in love.  Lately, though I’ve been thinking that I need to put that desire on the backburner and start focusing on other things (things more in my control than the affections of another human being who has his own desires, wants, etc).

Besides, I feel like love will come. Possibly when I least expect it. I’d like it to come while I’m still young, but if it doesn’t I’ll survive.

I have a new focus in 2010. Finances and my future. What am I doing with my life? It’s funny because I came here to write about that and I noticed that my last post was titled just that. Clearly, this is something I’ve been thinking about for a while. It worries me. Six months have passed since I walked across the stage and what have I done with that time? Pine over lost love, cry over losing my dad, make terrible relationship decisions, go on several lackluster dates, spend a small fortune on clothes — nothing.

Not “nothing”. I do have a job and that is a plus in this economy. However, I really need to look at my life and decide what I am doing.

I need to set myself up to be financially independent and feel like I am doing what I was created to do by the time I’m 30. That means I’ve got seven years. That seems like a long time but it will FLY.

I need to figure out where I’m at, what I’m doing, where I’m going and what do I want to be doing…Those four things need to match up.

Right now I just have a large “?”

I don’t like that. Jan 2, 2011 I need to be singing a different tune. More like lalalala, my life is on track, lalalala. Haha