Today, I changed my mind.
A few weeks ago (when I decided I needed to focus), I reasoned that I was trying to do too many things. I thought I was like the person who wanted to go North, South, East and West…at the exact same time. I want to progress professionally and career wise and I felt that if I didn’t concentrate my efforts, I wouldn’t progress at all.
Today, I decided that’s not true.
I can do more than one thing at once. As I never fail to mention on this blog (lol), I graduated Magna Cum Laude from journalism school, while volunteering in student media outlets, while being involved in a sorority, while working a job as an RA, and – of course- while chasing after dead-end relationships. So, the relatively few things I’m trying to do right now aren’t too much to ask.
The truth is, every time I commit to do one thing and let the rest go, I remember how much I want another thing. I, then, decide to just focus on that thing, but then I miss the other three things. It’s a never ending cycle, so today I decided to focus on them all. Besides, there is no sense in putting all my dimes into one jukebox.
So, I’m focused on all four things in order to get to one thing: My Goal.
My Love: theFreshXpress.com
I’ve been working for the website since before it launched. I have never been so committed to a job (volunteer or paid). At this point, it’s a part of me. I love it. I’ve watched it grow. I’ve helped it grow. I work on theFreshXpress every day. I was in Las Vegas…on vacation…working on FXP. The longest I’ve been away from it is probably the four or five days after my dad passed away — then, all on my own, I was right back at it. My dream for FXP is that it will be bigger than the Huffington Post. People may think that’s crazy, but I’m sure they thought it was crazy for the Huff Post to think it’d be bigger than the New York Times. I’m sure people thought it was crazy for Fox News Channel to have higher-ratings than CNN. So yeah, FXP is my love.
My Dream: Television reporting/anchoring
I’ve wanted to be a news reporter/anchor since I was a junior in HS. I did the televised morning announcements at one of my high-schools (“one of” FIVE, long story, don’t ask). I volunteered at TV news stations in college. I majored in Broadcast Journalism. I interned at FOX and CNN. In 2008, I ate slept and drank news. I love news and being a reporter or anchor for news would be my DREAM come TRUE.
My Passion: Writing.
I’ve been writing forever. I never appreciated the ability until I was in college. I wrote poetry and songs when I was in middle school and high-school, but I never admitted to myself that writing as a profession would be the coolest thing ever until recently. I want to be a freelance magazine writer. I love magazines and I’ve been reading them for years. I want to publish articles in magazines on a regular basis and eventually write a book.
My Plan: Graduate school
It just seems like the right thing to do. I’ve done school before. I did a great job academically in school. I believe that if my dad wouldn’t have passed away right after I graduated, I could have leveraged my schooling better and I wouln’t be unemployed now. I feel like grad school would be a do-over (and a chance to learn more skills). I could get an internship again and turn that into a job. I also could use the resources available (professors, administrators, career services etc.) more effectively than I did in undergrad.
My Goal: To work overtime (forget “full-time”) in journalism and love my job. So whatever it takes to make that happen, I’m doing it.
I’ll sleep when I’m dead.