Have you ever had one of those days? One of those days that starts out as a regular day then turns out to be one of the best days you’ve ever had? One of those extraordinary days where the thing that you have been praying for happens? One of those days you wake up and realize that the wait is over, the struggle has finally ended, and the pain is gone?
That’s where I am…except my day has turned into weeks which has turned into months. Great day after great day. Sometimes I think to myself, this cannot be my life. But this time, I am thinking that in a good way. In the words of SATC’s Charlotte, I’m so happy I’m terrified.
Seriously, one day I was hopelessly unemployed and inexplicably single and just wanting to trade lives with somebody, ANYBODY else and the next thing I knew I have this great boyfriend and great job as the Social Media Manager for one of the most popular and well-liked mayors in America. As always I attend to the greatest church this side of heaven and have made the greatest friends a girl could ask for. I also write and edit for an awesome website (theFreshXpress.com) My life is so good, it’s unbelievable. Not that everything is perfect, but my perspective has changed a LOT. I am wholly focused on the good cause there is so darn much of it! I’m just so thankful and so happy…and as a result at a loss for things to write about.
I always write from my heart. I write about things as a way to get them off of my chest. If I feel anything strong enough for long enough, I have to write about it.
So it follows that for years I wrote about my search for love. It makes great writing material but I was in a crappy emotional state. I read some of my old stuff now and I don’t even recognize that girl anymore. What was she thinking? Not why did she feel so intensely, but why did she put so much into so little? Honestly, I haven’t quite gotten to the place where I can see the error in my own ways, but I don’t villianize those men anymore either. I’m just 25 and over it.
I’m still going to write. In fact, I plan to write more than I’ve been writing, but I hope to be writing about different things. I want to focus my writing on Christian themes and concepts, and my experience in Columbus and general day-to-day silliness that makes up the comedy show that my life is. (My random commentary can be found on http://Twitter.com/AlissaInPink and I save my really good material for theFreshXpress.com/author/Alissa)
I’m writing from a different place now though. This Cannot Be My Life is less about it’s so horrible I cant believe it, and more it’s so great I cant believe it. Like did someone trade lives me with me without me knowing it? This can’t be my life, but it is. Am I’m so glad 🙂
“For just one second, look at your life and see how perfect it is. Stop looking for the next secret door that is going to lead you to your real life. Stop waiting. This is it: there’s nothing else. It’s here, and you’d better decide to enjoy it or you’re going to be miserable wherever you go, for the rest of your life, forever.” – Lev Grossman