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Baby Boy Nursery Ideas

Now that we know what we’re having, it’s time to start thinking about the nursery.

The previous owners of our house had a little girl and they painted her bedroom pink. We immediately decided to leave the pink in hopes that we would eventually get pregnant – and then we would have a 50/50 chance of having a girl.

Well, we’re having a BOY, so bye-bye pink room!

Our little girl theme would’ve been pink princess. I know, so cliche, but I loved the idea of pink, lace and tiaras everywhere. I hadn’t thought too much about what I would want the boy theme to be so I went to Pinterest for inspiration…and found A LOT! We narrowed it down to a few. Continue reading “Baby Boy Nursery Ideas”

Five Places to Visit In Tipp City Ohio

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My husband and I like to road trip and for my birthday we decided to check out Tipp City, Ohio.  Continue reading “Five Places to Visit In Tipp City Ohio”

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DIY Dressing Room Reveal

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Take it from me: once you’ve converted a spare bedroom into a huge closet/dressing room/cloffice – whatever the cool kids are calling it these days – it is almost impossible to go back. Continue reading “DIY Dressing Room Reveal”

Musings On Unanswered Prayers…

praying-emojiRecently, I’ve come to terms with something that has been groundbreaking in my walk with God.

I realized: We don’t get everything we ask God for. Continue reading “Musings On Unanswered Prayers…”

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Blue Apron: Why I Canceled

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This is me in my head!

If you’re like me then you have dreams of being some gourmet glamour girl. Hair in-tact, flawless makeup, rocking a perfectly pressed apron, feet in stilettos, cooking up delicious meals in a gorgeous kitchen.

In reality, you’re in sweats, house wrecked, hair a mess, barefaced, standing in your god awful kitchen and pulling crumpled, stained pizza place coupons out of the junk drawer.

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This is me in real life

“That was last week. For real, this week will be different.” At least, that was what I thought to myself when the first Blue Apron box arrived on my doorstep. Continue reading “Blue Apron: Why I Canceled”

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Marriage Stuff: Turning Toward Him

By the time my husband arrived home from work, I was already in sweats, curled up on the couch, blanket draped over my lap, three episodes deep in a Keeping Up with the Kardashians season 1 marathon. I’d planned to order a pizza and relax in that spot for the rest of the evening.

So when Joe got home and asked if I was hungry, I was fully prepared to suggest a medium pepperoni pizza for two. He had other plans, “how about something out of the box?” (No pun intended.) He suggested we go to a local restaurant/bowling alley.

Ugh, I immediately thought to myself, now I have to get dressed.  Continue reading “Marriage Stuff: Turning Toward Him”

What To Expect When You’re NOT Expecting

I can see “the question” coming from a conversation away.

It’s innocent, well-meaning, inquisitive…and frustrating.

“So when are you having a baby?”

I’ve been hit with the question at brunch with friends and while sitting in church near acquaintances. The question comes up at work and when I bump into an old friend at the mall. Even complete strangers find it appropriate to ask me if my husband and I are having kids soon.

My answer varies from a mumbling shrug to a bright and cheery “I don’t know. We’re open to it, so probably sometime soon.” What I want to say is: “We’ll have a baby when I get pregnant. We’ve been trying for a baby for years and failed every time. At this point, I’m sick of people asking.” But that would be rude and I understand that the person asking me isn’t trying to be rude, so I just do the fake smile thing or the mumble shrug thing.

Either way, I’m frustrated both with being asked the question and by not being able to answer with “I’m pregnant right now!”

No one wants ME to have a baby more than ME. And sometimes it seems that every one has a baby except me.

When I’m out and about, I notice more pregnant women than ever. I notice every toddler in a stroller, every kid in a shopping cart, every baby peeking out of a Bjorn strapped to his mom’s chest.

There was a time when I thought getting pregnant would be the worst thing to ever happen to me. Even after I got married, I was still anti-baby-on-the-way. Each visit from Aunt Flow was a relief. I was focused on my career, my marriage, my friends, and my freedom.

Then one day something changed.

I’m not even sure what changed. All I know is I went from rolling my eyes at anyone who commented that my (White) husband and I would make beautiful children to endlessly scrolling through “#MixedRaceBabiesIG” pictures on Instagram. I went from declaring a baby would be the death of my career ambitions to dreaming about conquering the challenges that come with being a working mom. Suddenly, I realized that I no longer wanted to put mommyhood on hold for my career. I wanted both.

And so far, it hasn’t happened.

Every month when my cycle starts, it feels like a funeral…but I’m the only one invited.

Perhaps unfairly, I blame this crushing disappointment in my inability to get pregnant right away on a sex education system that preached unprotected sex automatically equals pregnancy. Abstinence-only education preaches that even protected sex can result in pregnancy. Case in point: Remember that famous “Friends” episode (“The One Where Rachel Tells Ross”) and they had an entire – hilarious – scene about the fact that condoms are not 100% effective against pregnancy? Yeah, lucky them.

Of course sex leads to pregnancy (both wanted and unwanted), but it’s not that simple for many women.

The truth is, you can try and try and try and fail and fail and fail.

At the end of the day, all the calendars, ovulation kits, strategic positioning, multiple romps in a day, weight loss plans, prenatal vitamins, careful timing – even fertility pills and IVF- in the world are completely at the mercy of God and biology.

In fact the CDC counts the number of married women ages 15-44 that are infertile (or unable to get pregnant after at least 12 consecutive months of unprotected sex with husband) at 1.5 million. If you count the women who can get pregnant but not carry a baby to full term that number jumps to 6.7 million.

On the bright side, a new study found that almost half of women who said they’d been struggling to get pregnant for at least a year ended up having a baby despite not getting fertility treatment.

So there is still hope!

While I’m not yet expecting, I try to keep in mind that right now is not forever. So I’m still waiting.

And waiting.

And waiting.

But I’ve decided that waiting isn’t necessarily that bad.

Because to wait is to remain actively involved in your breakthrough.

You’re only “waiting” if you’re still believing. If you didn’t believe you will have what you’re hoping for, then you wouldn’t be waiting at all. Instead, you would have given up hope.

So, in that spirit, the only thing I’ve found helpful and productive while waiting is to be thankful. To be thankful for the place I am in right now. To be thankful for both the days I can sleep in carefree and the nights I can slave at work until the wee hours. Thankful that my husband and I can just pick up and go on a trip and thankful for the days we can just stay home and do absolutely nothing. Thankful for getting to watch my nieces and nephews and thankful for the ability to just give them back.

Although I am hoping to go from here to mommyhood as soon as possible, in this moment right here, right now there is something to be thankful for. Every single thing has its upsides and downsides. I just have to focus on the upsides and maybe even create an upside simply by looking for it. While I’m waiting for things to turn, I may as well make the most of the kid-free moment I’m in right now because, once I’m finally pregnant, I’ll never have this moment again.

So, if you’re like me and you’re wondering what to expect when you’re NOT expecting, well honestly, expect to be disappointed. However, I hope you’ll join me in tempering that disappointment with a little enjoyment and thankfulness for the moment that we’re in right now.

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#BackstageBuzz

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I don’t play favorites with my segments because I love them all equally, but “Backstage Buzz” is definitely one of the most fun.

Backstage Buzz is a series I created featuring musicians, comedians, actors, speakers, etc who come to Columbus for concerts and events. Continue reading “#BackstageBuzz”

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Royal Caribbean – Allure of the Seas Review

DSC_0050A friend once told me that “cruises are a poor man’s vacation.”

Obviously we weren’t really friends because who says that to someone after being told they’re excited about a honeymoon cruise?

Regardless, I’ve been on five cruises since then and I LOVE CRUISING. Continue reading “Royal Caribbean – Allure of the Seas Review”

Unplugged 

I’m really excited to be unplugged for a whole week — completely off the grid. I don’t know what anyone else is doing and no one knows what I am doing.

Our current society demands we be connected 24/7 but what does our constant connection do to our every day lives? If my face is buried in my phone, there is no time to think, imagine, create or even just be. And worse is when I’m with someone else and glued to my phone. Sometimes being “connected” really means being disconnected in reality.And it’s not just social media. I love the news and on my phone, the news keeps coming: breaking, entertainment, politics, lifestyle, random — all of it floods my notifications and emails. It’s a constant barrage and I have to read every bit of it. Continue reading “Unplugged “

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30th Birthday Trip to Las Vegas

Paris Vegas is always a good idea.”

 

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I’ve wanted to go to Europe for years. My dream is to peer through the gates of Kensington Palace in London, eat authentic Italian food in Rome and share a kiss in front of the Eiffel Tower in Paris. Continue reading “30th Birthday Trip to Las Vegas”

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My Surprise 30th Birthday Party Recap!

A full week later and I am still smiling ear-to-ear about my husband surprising me with a 30th birthday party! Continue reading “My Surprise 30th Birthday Party Recap!”